"Money don't get everything it's true but what it don't get I can't use, I want money"

I have never been this broke in my entire life.

Someone said to me once that the size of the bank account indicates how successful you are as a person.  According to this statement I am a total loser ;)....weird that I don't feel like one, well cause damn, I've travelled around the world!! ;) Success to me personally is how much someone has lived, loved and most importantly learnt and not the size of their bank account.

Although...

I have never known what I wanted to do in life, and I did envy those kids at school who had already mapped out their life plans.  You know the ones with the one, five and ten year time limits. 

Previously, I could never commit to something like that, mostly because I used to be an efficient quitter.

Things I have quit in my life (in chronological order) -: violin, cello, the recorder, Japanese (language not food), French, Art, Jewellery making, Spanish (I'm still hopeful about this one)...(this is not even counting relationships) and I'm sure I've missed quite a few other things. I've even tried to quit my degree six months before I finished but didn't under fear of being murdered by most people I knew.

See...I wish I could just travel around forever, I wish I had that luxury.

The luxury of not having to work. 

Coming from a working class background and having worked most of my life in a variety of jobs I was used to working.  I didn't have many sick days, I had a good work ethic...then....I don't know what happened.  

Maybe it began when I went to university and I had to reduce my work hours, then I had exams and took some time off....it was like an addiction (not working)I got used to it. Mid-afternoon drinks, sleeping in past 7am, long lunches.  I began to see the point in not working (for the man)I just couldn't get my head around the futility of it.  It is all about the money and I'm not nearly as materialistic as I once was. 

Although money does bring me to closer to my main loves...travel...so back to work I go, jumping through the hoops, and hopefully along the way I'll find a job I can be as passionate about as travelling and maybe even (cross fingers) a career.....time to grow up. :)